Love... Wonderful Journey

2010-06-05T00:25:00.001+08:00

I'm done with maybe around 50% of editing the painting using photoshop! woahh, it's difinitely difficult and eyes are damn tired now. But seeing the result makes me really satisfied. :D Gonna continue tmr.
Strive, and never give up!

03062010! <3

2010-05-20T00:48:00.002+08:00

Shall start updating my blogger too. dont really feel like keeping this blog dead.
Exams are over, yet I dont feel that it had caused any change in my life. I still feel... as stressed as ever, maybe even more. Have to chiong 4 boards by friday, and currently I'm only done with 1 which I'm most satisfied with. I don't think I've enough materials to fill up the other 3 boards... Seems like I've to paint more, and practise my skills too? Gosh, board 5 is due next week too. Not that I'm complaining, but other than the paintings I've to do, I don't really like to do art. Probably 'cause painting makes me feel relaxed, and not as stressed? I have no idea. lol.
Results for MYE was pretty alright, did better than expected for some subjects, though Biology was disappointing. The first time I got a C for my science. D: Shocking, but I've accepted it. It doesn't really matter, the marks. It just showed me how much I've to improve, and how much more effort do I have to put in to do well.

So yeahh, I've done my best, and I'm contented.

2010-05-03T00:16:00.001+08:00

recently just switched to tumblr, so didnt update my blogger much, hahas.
exams started and i'm busy with my art and revision so not going to post frequently too. ><
right, so byes.

2010-04-18T23:17:00.002+08:00

Went out to Bras Basar today to buy Chem Workout and colour pencils. I realised that I've been buying so much from popular since the start of the year! Should've gotten the member card. >< But nvm. Now my table is full of assessments and textbooks and papers, but I cant seem to complete them! argg... Time isnt enough. I guess june holidays i have to mug practically everyday? gosh. Still, settle the important things first! Saved lots of photos from facebook for my art. Sorry if i took your photo. XD haha but I seriously love facebook! without it my art coursework will fail cos i'm lazy to get any photos. one reason is my camera is not exactly portable/ sleek. so i don't like to bring. lol. aww, but today wasn't exactly a fruitful day. did a drawing, and it sucks! I dun like to colour... :( still, at least, one drawing down. (i'm suppposed to do 2?) didnt manage to sttudy much today too. Blame it on Fang Hong and Jun Meng who keep playing and wasting time! argg. but it's a fun day todday, didnt regret going out to study, though i think that I could better use the time to do alot more other things. hahas. finally a happy post? i dunno, but yeahh, i guess today is a happy day. endure the final lap! Tmr will be better! (I hope?)

2010-04-17T22:28:00.002+08:00

I know I've to start revision already, but I'm lost...
I have no idea what to do for art, but I don't want it to pull down my overall grade.
This sucks totally. But what can I do? haix.

Watching them being handed the form to attend the awards nite, seeing the smiles on their faces, I wonder why am I not one of them. Did I not put in enough effort? Why cant I be recognised? So what if I'm one of the top 10 in the level when the people only care about the top in level. They'll only ask, who's the first? and the others will get neglected. It's normal i guess. Why didnt I maintain my top in mathematics? Why cant i be the best again? I hate this feeling, seriously. Now I already have difficulty coping with the subjects, how can I possibly think so far? I really think that I'm going to fail my midyear.

Art is killing me. I've lost the interest. I have totally no mood in continuing. But I still have to persevere. It's just an empty shell who's drawing and painting, not me. Art is depriving me of the time to enjoy life. It's making me lose my freedom. I hate that. Most of all, I hate being forced to do things which I don't like. Why did you scold me when I've tried my best to produce the drawing which I think it's nice? Your words hurt me to the max. It's like thousands of needles pricking my heart. I've put in my effort and you said it's of primary sch standard? So what's good drawing to you?! Please, I just want this to end. I seriously regret my decision of taking art in the first place. Last year was alright, but this year, all I can say is, it sucks. Totally. Nothing could bring back the interest I have in art before. It has been long lost.

2010-04-10T20:39:00.003+08:00

Nationals ended.
Surprisingly, I got into S/Finals for 400m. Quite unexpected, but there's nothing to show off about. Timing wasn't very fast. Plus this year's qualifying timing was slower than last year by alot...
800m was disappointing. Guess I was pretty nervous hahas. but still, it's a great experience though I didnt even get close to my PB.
Managed to enter S/Finals for 4x100m too. but timing wasn't really great too, so yeahh..
Most disappointing was probably 4x400m. I thought I ran my best. I really thought I'm fast. I thought I caught up and close up the gap. I really thought I could break PB. In the end, it's just... wishes? Why did I train so much? Isn't it to help me improve? but why I cant? I noe I shdn't compare myself with others, but why cant i do it?
I'm feeling helpless.. :(

No Grand Finals races for me this year... again.

2010-03-29T00:04:00.003+08:00

Nationals Schedule is out! (Tentative)
Most races are in the afternoon! No skipping lessons for me. :O

Thursday, 1st April
800m 1625 Heats

Monday, 5th April
400m 1640 Heats

Tuesday, 6th April
400m 1445 S/Finals

Wednesday, 7th April
4x100m 1615 Heats

Thursday, 8th April
4x100m 1530 S/Finals

Friday, 9th April
400m 0935 Finals
4x400m 1500 Heats

Wednesday, 14th April
800m 1540 Finals
4x100m 1630 Finals
4x400m 1714 Finals

I really wanna get into Finals for my 800m! Missed by one position last year. ><
but haix, I know that my form isnt as well as last year.
Maybe clock a PB?
3 more days!

The reality

2010-03-15T21:39:00.003+08:00

I've lost my confidence. Ever since the start of this year, I've not been confident for anything. Whatever I did, it will come out wrong, all wrong. What for dream so much when in the end, they are just dreams? They won't become reality. Not even when I've put in alot of effort. I just got to learn to accept this cruel fact, that wherever I am, there will always be someone who is way better than me out there.

And yeahh, I have lost my will to fight, to achieve my goals. I am neither a talented nor hardworking person. I'm just some average person, and someone who would stay unnoticed even when she fights hard to be in the limelight. There'll always be some other people who would steal the light away, covering her in the darkness.

This is the reality. Cruel, but true.

I've lost, totally. though i can be encouraging the others, i cant encourage myself. No amount of motivation can make me be myself again. This will cause me my dream, I know. But I've learnt to let go. There'll be no disappointment when there's no hope. So I shan't hope.

2010-03-09T22:11:00.002+08:00

Got up in the morning feeling dizzy..
Gosh I really hate the feeling, everything around me is spinning, and even when i closed my eyes it's the same.
didnt go to school today, and i had this long-awaited long rest.
Practically slept the whole day until dinnertime, except when i got up to visit the doctor and ate lunch.
haha pro ritght?
so now i'm going to persevere and do whatever i can to secure the place at 800m finals. I noe i can do it. ;D

I believe, I am on form. :D

2010-03-08T22:02:00.002+08:00

hmm.. i feel like changing a blogskin already. but cant find a suitable one yet, so have to wait lo.

today shall mark the start of crazy trainings! i am going to train whenever i have the chance to, cos it's my last year, my last chance to achieve something. but i have to admit, it is sort of too late to start only now. yet who is to be blamed but myself? i have to be more determined i guess. suddenly mind blank, now i've no idea wad to post.

still, there's some things i cant post too. dun wish to point fingers at others cos it's my problem. lol. i'm sort of fed up with myself though, why mus i find fault with others when i am not even perfect or flawless? i cant continue this way, but i know that there is no way which i can change.

The more you sweat in practise, the less you bleed in battle.

Pain is nothing compared to what it feels like to quit.

2010-03-02T22:16:00.003+08:00

Life sucks, seriously.
why is it that i tried so hard, just to change, yet nothing comes out of it.
i know i have to be stronger, but, it seems that i'm getting weaker every second.
i cant deal with setbacks. i cant do anything right.
the only thing i know is to complain and confide whenever i am feeling down
i know this isnt solving anything, but the problem is, i have no idea what to do..
so how?

i really want to run the SPH relays...
but now...
haix, i dun feel like talking about it.
i'm such a hypocrite.

2010-02-27T21:11:00.002+08:00

right, suddenly i feel very dejected.
At first, i'd thought it was a good thing to be able to run in the relays.
Now, i think otherwise.
I've something in mind which i want to express, but i had made it too obvious the previous times that now i may seem to have a motive if i suggest it to them later.
so now it became my fault. it is because of me that i'm so unhappy now. and it is because of me that i cannot make any changes now.
so what can i do?
I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. this is not my intention.
but i really want the relays to end successful. i want to show that girls can do it too.
is it really possible? i'm not sure. and i cant bring myself to think about it.
why is it that i'm always such a failure? always cant seem to do anything right, yet i want to get involved in so many things.
i really want to change, really. but how?

Life goes on... learn to cope?

2010-02-26T21:50:00.002+08:00

class drama is a success! everything went smoothly during the actual performance. i guess we didnt screw it in the end. ;D yeapp, but still i dunno why, just became a bit emotional yesterday. haix, guess i was too sensitive? had an urge to skip school today, wasnt feeling too well to attand lessons, but was kinda forced by my dad to go school. well, i admit, i'm trying to escape. i know that it won't help to solve anything, but at least it will give me chance to cope with some things. i'm a perfectionist, i know, and that is my greatest flaw i guess. always wanting to be the best, and wanting to have a part in everything, even though i already have not enough time.. gosh. when will i ever learn? i think maybe it'll stick with me forever? hahas. i got to have more time management and self-discipline if i want to excel.

taking things slowly in my stride...

2010-02-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

I'm disappointed with myself. Gosh, what's happening to me?
Suddenly it's like my whole world came crashing down. Okay maybe not that exaggerated, but something like that.
So much to do, yet so little time.
It's not exactly a sudden realisation, but yeahh, I know i must exercise more control.
I cant procrastinate already!
Yet my mind is just thinking about playing, going out and tv shows.
Gosh, I wondered how i'd survived my tests.
I should stop sleeping in class already, or I'm so going to flunk all my tests next week.
argg.. To think i even forget how to do SBQ and SEQ after the holidays.
My combined humanities is going to die le lo.. ><
I am stressed! Class Drama next week, I WONDER HOW THE DANCE IS GOING TO FINISH CHOREOGRAPHING??!! WE DON'T HAVE ALL THE TIME, PLUS WE NEED PRACTICES?
wahh, I'm afraid that the end drama won't be up to expectations.
cos yeahh, i know, i'm not a good leader.
maybe not forceful enough?
guess i should start listing out a timetable for the rehearsals already.
AND I should force them to comply. zzz...
My ART! how am I going to complete it.. haix. =X
gotta go, spent too much time on blogging already.
wahh...

trying to make full use of my time...

2010-02-15T15:56:00.004+08:00

didnt have a chance to update the past few days, but yeah nvm. ahahas.
was released quite early on friday, arnd 12 plus. went to watch movie, Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief! It's a great movie. ;D haha i didnt expect to see Eugene, Se Pent, Jonathan they all... so well was kinda shocked when i saw them after the movie ended. but still, it was an enjoyable day. :D
kinda forgot wad i did on saturday. guess i was just slacking around and watching tv? haha. and yesterday was seriously boring. went to relatives house in the early afternoon, den left after a while. went to 313 to slack, walk around. den went to cp to find them to chat. haha. my heels are killing me. ><

maybe it's just me. ;D

2010-02-09T22:16:00.003+08:00

all comers 2 had been great!!
cos i hit pb, and i feel on form! xD
but the happiness doesnt last long, and today's training suck sia!
damn it!
guess i've to rest more.. >< haix i wanna break pb..

I'm in a dilemma... wad should I do now?

went blog hopping just now.
gosh, it's like a crack just formed in my heart.
saw something which i think would be better if i didnt see.
now my hopes are dashed.
forget it.
everything is over...

Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.
Maybe it'll take a while before it'll heal...
Or should i ask and confirm before i decide anything?

2010-02-04T22:39:00.002+08:00

Have to get back my confidence.
Believe in myself, and I can do it.
yeapp, I must break my pb in acm 2. ;D

I sort of regret my decisions last year... I didnt know what I was thinking back then.
but now, is it too late to turn back? I really dunno...

If I know what love is, it is because of you.

2010-01-31T22:38:00.003+08:00

I'm trying hard to fight back my fears.
But I know it's not going to be easy to do it.
I've to commit more, put in more effort, but i don't have the time.
I've no idea how to do, wad to do, how i shd do.
Yet time is running out, I've to recover, get on form, train, and gain my confidence by sunday.
It just seem so impossible.

Being director is not easy.
seriously. getting them to cooperate is one thing, knowing what to do is another.
I don't have much idea of how to do the blocking all those stuffs. and up till now the music is not chosen yet.
like wth. and this stupid body world thing have to make me sacrifice my gym training on wed so that i can make up for my stadium training which i'm going to miss on tues.
plus all these tests that's coming up this week. can I just cancel the drama rehearsals after school?

I guess I've to learn how to lead, to be confident of myself, and to be sure of what i should do.
><

fighting back my tears...

2010-01-26T20:37:00.002+08:00

goshh.. I feel so, dejected.
Training today was, tough, I admit. but I dunno why I cant even run 400m.
This sucks. Off-formed alot. seriously.
and to think i'm running all comers meet 2.
I have to improve, I know.
The problem is, I dunno how.

2010-01-25T20:34:00.002+08:00

finally, class drama script done. gosh, since when i become a scriptwriter? ><
Stressed up these few days, and my schedule is damn packed.
When can I find a time to hald rehearsals with them?! Have to sacrifice my activities lo.. better ask permission from mr yap first. haix.
today's eng test, quite alright. and i finally wrote a discusive essay.
tmr bio test, i haven even memorised anything yet. damn. gotta go revise? haha.
training tmr! =/

2010-01-21T21:16:00.003+08:00

I totally have no idea what's happening to me. Gosh, I feel so weak. Everything just weigh down on me, I'm feeling damn stressed out now. Yet I'm not going to complain, I cant complain. I have to endure it, I've to prove that I've the ability to cope. It's going to be a tough battle, I know, but what would I stand to lose from it? Time, maybe, but I just have to do it..

Fell down twice this week, both during trainings. How unlucky can I get? From minor bruises until now, I cant even walk properly. Would I recover in time for on season trainings, for Nationals? I'm afraid, I'm scared of what lies ahead of me. If everything is already predestined, I doubt mine would be a smoothsailing one. But what else can I do other than accept? I've not done well in anything before. Yet I hope, I wish, that maybe this year I may have the chance to make my mark, to really excel. The problem is, can I?

“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

“We all at certain times in our lives find ourselves broken. True strength is found in picking up the pieces.”

2010-01-17T20:56:00.002+08:00

last week had been fun, didnt have lessons for wed to fri. XD
went to Singapore Discovery Centre on wednesday
den had class drama planning on thursday.
i'm the director! cos i dun wanna act. lol.
friday had career conference; went to forensic science, psychology, fashion, accountancy.
hahas all are interesting. ;D
ACM1 on sat and sun, but i only went on sat to support.
went home and chionged the homeworks, so english and maths stuffs all done already.
hahas den today did chem and art, but didnt really complete chem, cos dun feel like it. lol.

now testimonial done oso. xD i wanna sleep le.

elated ;D

2010-01-11T21:52:00.004+08:00

received o levels results today! ;D
for chinese only lah, hahas.
i'm sososo relieved that i got a1, so i've one less subject to worry about already.
supposed to get art question paper today, but recess ms tay dun have yet, plus after school lazy to find her.
shd be getting tmr lo.
haix. hope i can do well sia. but i dun like the 3 hour paper. ;(
coursework is still okay.

Amaths test tmr. i'm NOT ready.
i'm so tired now and i still have to study and check answers. like WTH.

dun feel like running. damn.
how how how???
training is tmr. my core is still so weak. my arms.. dun need to say le.

and my bro is suaning me. like everyday?
jus now he keep sayin the further trigo is easy!
i so wanna strangle him cos i dunno how the hell to do the questions! >< can he transfer his brain to me? ;P

6/7'06 class outing/gathering ytd! like finally, ahahs. i guess most didnt change much, i can still recognise rayson, christie, steph, and ... well but i guess bryan changed alot. seriously he looked different, like more matured? hahas. watched the vampire's assistant, cos sherlock holmes was sold out. damn. but the movie's not bad, so yeahh. hahas. left arnd after the movie, went to find shihui. den go her house do hw. haha. went home arnd 9 plus. xD

i'm tired, my brain cells are dying. i cant adapt to the school life yet.. life sucks, seriously. how much effort do i have to put in jus to get that tiny reward? it's unfair, yet i've to put up with all that. sometimes i dun wish to be doin so many things, but other times i wished that everything would be done by me. i'm a hypocrite, and i noe that. but i dunno how to change that. =/

2010-01-08T21:36:00.002+08:00

first week of school was over before i knew it.
like gosh, time passed so fast.
on monday 11jan i'll be getting back the O level chinese results, AND O level art paper 1 question paper.
not quite ready for both, if you ask me.
I'm still in need of rest and sleep, cant get used to waking up early YET. ><
but i'll try to adapt soon bahh. haix.

should i go training tmr? i'm not sure!! ;(
dun feel very motivated to run. just feel like training gym, improve in my strength, blah blah.
i dun hav the urge to run intervals.
my core and back is weak. my arms are weak. i'm like so... i dunno wad to say.
zzz..

going to orchard on sunday! 6/7 '06 class outing!! like after so long. ;)
i'm waiting for the day to come! dunno going to watch wad movie lehh, decide tt time bahh? hahas.

my mentality sucks. i'm indecisive even till now. can't i just push on and endure?

2010-01-05T21:25:00.002+08:00

gosh i feel so hyper now! hahas!
not becos of school but cos my msn change to a newer version, den it's so cool!!
so now i'm busy chatting and neglecting my homework. opps xP
hahas. training today was alright, but i'm scared that i cant go nationals this year!! i'm not really on form yet. but still have to train hard.
I must have confidence!! ;D

i can do it, and i will. i cant let my efforts go to waste, and just miss this last chance.

2010-01-03T15:30:00.004+08:00

School is starting tmr! left the Physics WS to do before i complete my holiday homework.. haix. dun feel like doing cos i dunno how to do? lol. i wanna sleep.. tired sia. today woke up late, cos after today there's no mmore chance to do the same.

2010 is a brand new start, and I'm going to do my best so that when i look back, I wont regret. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARAN!

2010-01-01T18:29:00.002+08:00

watched Alvin and the Chipmunks2 on 27th. hahas the movie was funny! laughed alot. den went to northpoint to have dinner and shop.xD

track outing on tues! overall it was fun! ;D left arnd 8.30/9plus with NiJun, TeoYang, Marcus. took a few pics on the train den chatted. hahas. they alighted at seragoon to take circle line, so i was alone again lo. lols. went training on wed, late by a few minutes, heh. ;P it has been a week since i've trained. haix. lunched with Nijun, Jinxing, donovan, Elwin. den i left early to rush to chevron house to work. thanks ck for treating donuts haha! darren was there too lol. it was torture lo, had to do lobby and counter alone.. ;( sweat like hell cos the aircon was off-ed. sobs.

shall update soon. have to eat dinner le. xD

meanwhile,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINXING!

2009-12-20T22:17:00.002+08:00

seriously, i'm irritated with alot of stuffs.
alot of problems, most i dunno how to solve. haix.
the root of the problems most probbly is caused by myself bahh..
so yeahh, cant blame anyone; not that i wan to. lol.
but wad can i do, this is me, I cant simply change anytime i wan to, I cant jus change overnight..

Just realise that i didnt really change much since the start of this year.
2009 is ending soon, yet i'm still comparing myself with others, sensitive to wad other ppl see me. like wth, i was supposed to change that bad habit?!
until when would i become a better person? hahas it suddenly seemed so far..><
I'm still afraid to be left out.. i hate being lonely; i wonder how some ppl are able to talk so easily with others. havin a common topic isnt easy, especialy for me. I'm not so into korean stuffs or wad.. so it's like crap, listening to them talk about something i totally hav no idea on.
yeah fine, i'm jealous, wadever.

thursday went to work at chevron house outlet, cos not enough crew.
darren's funny! haha he's always behind calling me and valerie koh to smile. xDD
but yeah, valerie's skills are quite good, i mus admit.
after that chionged to training at bishan. forgot the programme le, jus noe that it's not a good training for me..
went behind and cried abit, cos was disappointed with myself.
but thanks to kenzo and eugene, i did skipping and bridge. ;D
friday went to work again, after 2pm there's seriously very little ppl.
den joked with darren, including richard oso, opps.. ;P
i actually thought richard was older than darren!! i'm sorry..
exchanged numbers with valerie koh and kian how.
lols jia meng came while i was eating my lunch, which was sudden? haha.
after that went art fren den went cp to work again, though i was alr very tired. hah.
relative came on fri too.:D
sat went to sentosa with cousins, den rushed to work.
gosh, i was 30mins late. like that's the first time i'm so late. =X
but ah shuen very good de mahh, hahas.
today counter got me valerie and kong wei!
so fun, muhahahha.
val went to de lobby in the end, so me and kong wei and ah shuen started chatting.
okay, i admit, i like to gossip. xP
i should learn to control my laughter, haha.
not going to elaborate much but yeahh, it was the most enjoyable. ;)

I'll have to enjoy myself while i can, next year is sure gonna be busy..
but still, wad's my definition of being happy?
can i really be contented?
can i really enjoy wad i'm doing?
hahas haix..
this is sure a long post. but it wont be anytime soon which i've the time to do so again.

2009-12-08T21:22:00.002+08:00

finally i'm using the comp hahas. after like, goin to 1 month alr?
XDD
resigning in a weeks time. not that i wan to, but i've to get a life. ever since i started work holidays have been work, training, homework. so yeapp, i'm going to go shoppin for my running shoes alr. hehe.
I've been tellin myself that i need to improve, yet during training i'm not even motivated to do my best, or to push to my limits. i need to be influenced by the right ppl.. D; if not next year i'm not goin to break my pb, which i wan to. haix.. I NEED MORE SLEEP!!

lucky val came back, if not i'm goin to be bored to death. hahas.
Life at work is fun actually, Jm always bully me. =/ while i always bully kw. opps.
den ck is funny! hahas.
I'm gonna miss sh when i resign.. =(

2009-11-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

going overses tmr!!
but camp still have lots of things haven do... haix

2009-11-16T10:01:00.001+08:00

woahh long time no blog. hahas it's really busy for me, lol. went out alot.
o level chinese finally over, hope i'll do well. now have to deal with camp stuffs. hahas haix.
going overseas in 4 days time! missing tmg... ;(

2009-11-08T20:45:00.002+08:00

tired..
I'm tired of everything, tired of studying, tired of doing hw, tired of organising things, tired of having to do so much things in such a little amount of time, tired of rushing for time.
but wad can I do? Life's unfair, and I can only accept this reality. I cant change anything, I cant always do the things I wan, I cant have everything to go my way.

My dad is stressing me about o levels on tues again. doesnt he noe that i'm alr very stressed? why mus he still put so much pressure on me? I may not be good at managing my time or wadever, but at least i noe wad i am doin and i'll plan time to study. sooner or l8r i'll breakdown again. wth. i'm becoming more nervous for the paper alr, and that is not a good thing. now den i realise my chinese language level isnt that great. wth, there's still many more words which i dun understand, but i shd noe.. haix. time is running out. if i dun complete my art today i cant hav time to study! ;(

Received my pay ytd.. hahas finally i've some extra money to spend? xD is it a good thing or a bad thing? idk...

I sort of regretted my decision last year. it was really a hasty decision, now that i realise. part of it came from my arrogance. I thot i could handle 9 subjects, or 10 subjects to be exact ( if i separate SS and history), which now i noe, I cant. art is actually the main cause of my stress, with so much commitments to handle, i cant cope well.. This is bad.. real bad.

quite a long post today, but no amount of words could explain the torment i'm going through these past few days. I'm burying myself in work, and trainings, to escape from reality. but i noe this wont change anything. I still have to face the same problems, they wont go away. I can only hope for the best, and nothing else..

2009-11-03T22:06:00.001+08:00

bad mood these few days, lost interest in studies, track, everything.
now internet lag, waste my time. wth.
seriously o levels is freaking me out. chinese paper next week, i jus feel unprepared.
dunno wad else i can do already. haix. the comp better dun shut down now. lol.
now i just want to slack and sleep through the whole day. dun wish to study anymore.
even playing games feel bored. :/

sometimes i'd get tired, and i dun wish to continue.. but den, are u aware? I dun wish to hurt u... really. but i guessed i've hurt u already. ;(

2009-11-02T22:04:00.004+08:00

haix.. secondary 3 have conquer o! which means extra lessons in the holidays. haix. have to go back to school. ;( tmr BIO SPA, which was postponed cos mrs chan didnt come today. trigonometry is killer, sort of. jus dun like to think so much hahas.
Training today was great! I love GYM training! didnt manange to complete the whole programme but managed to do lunges (: same like last week, i did 10kg! hahas.
knee's going to die.. quite pain, haix.

I really wanna run relay next year in nationals. Guess i didnt try hard enough to improve? but i sort of cant cope alr with so many commitments. sometimes i really wonder if i'd made the right choice or not. But at least i noe now my main aim is to do well in O levels, and Get into the Finals for Nationals 800m next year.

2009-10-29T21:45:00.002+08:00

right, these few days damn tired. ;(
munofs just over, report bks given back.. blah blah.
didnt have the time and mood to post the past few days.
emo-ed abit, but yeahh, life still have to go on..
haix, shdnt think too much bout those things. I shd've realise by now that it's pointless for me, and me only, to go on like that. wad good would come out of it? it's jus futile effort on my part.
damn, when will i give up... and stop torturing myself?

am i really that insignificant? i think so too.. but i wont breakdown, not yet. jus bear with it, treat it as normal, and stop being so sensitive. Endure! no matter how hard i try, i wont be able to get along well with them.

2009-10-22T22:00:00.003+08:00

long time nv post! hahas. busy doing MUNOFS research and resolution these few days, so yupps, cant post. now i've completed the resolution le! hahas. training started this week, haix it was tiring. 1 month nv train le, i'm seriously off form. ;(
shant elaborate on that, ahahs today was sort of the best day since the school started after exams! checked marks today and I was damn surprised at my results sia! thot i wouldn't do too well as my results was not very high or wad. instead overall was considered quite good lo! remained in the top 10 of the level, I'm the 6th! yay! hehs L1R5 is 8. i was damn shock as i thot i would be gettin lots of b3. but i've 4 a1, 4 a2, and 1 b4. confirm the b4 is english de, but the rest i dunno le. hahas. yay happy day!

2009-10-15T20:31:00.002+08:00

right, exams are over, so is my birthday. hahas. really enjoyed myself that day, cos i'm released from exams! yay! went to amkhub to eat lunch with Kai Ying, Bernice, Amelia, Shi Min. den went to orchard ion! hehs. walked abit, den went to taka. they have to leave at 6 plus so we only walked for about 2++ hours lo. den took mrt to bishan to pei shi min, den me and bernice went to take circle line. hahas really enjoyed myself. it has been long since i'd so much fun on my birthday. ;)
ytd started work at yoshinoya. it was a great experience! hahas worked with valerie at the counter, den made some mistakes.. omg i'm sorry! haix. gonna improve alot le.. after work was tiring, but i cant fall asleep lo.. spent like 1 hour lying on my bed. hahas.
today went to school for the MUN thing, nth much. hahas
kk gonna watch my show le. lol

mich told me ms chew said the highest for physics in our class is 81, and is a girl! how i wish it was me... hahas

he forgot my birthday. well, it wasnt totally unexpected, but yeahh.. part of me really want him to rmb and wish me. even a short msg will do..

2009-10-10T23:39:00.002+08:00

left 2 more days to chiong 4 subjects. Chem, maths, history and art. wth. art is seriously time consuming. haix.. dark eye rings again? crap. I seriously hope to do well in all subjects lo.. but given my condition now i've lost confidence. no patience to do anything. plus i tire easily. ytd while copying history notes i actually wrote some maths stuffs. It's llike no link? hahas brain dead. cant think anymore.. =X rights, have to endure.. cant even enjoy my birthday. ;( sobs..

2009-10-07T14:59:00.002+08:00

FYE didnt seemed as stressful as the MYE. I was able to cope with the studies, and everything. plus all the papers are ending fast! hahas. XD but i'm dreading the art paper. not enough time, seriously. have to chiong drawings and paintings.. haix.
kk goin to print out stuffs and start on my art le.

2009-10-04T22:58:00.002+08:00

crap. today was damn unproductive. didnt manage to study any subject cos i went out.. zzz. one more wk. have to start on bio an history soon. the only 2 subjects i didnt manage to study much on. physics is freaking me out! wth. shall not do anything on physics le. i see all those formula i wanna die le. lols.

i seriously dun like exams..

2009-10-03T23:26:00.002+08:00

Exams started last week. nope, i'm not going to elaborate much since nothing could be done to help it.
one more week, and i'll have to complete my art prep work. is time really enough? maybe that's jus an excuse. probably art isnt my main worry now.. but still, i jus dunno wad's the problem with me.
I really miss those happy times.. haix.
back to studying now, wth.

2009-09-29T20:07:00.002+08:00

yeapp.. I'm on the verge of breakdown. feeling the stress now, since I've to start on my art prep work already. Not sure if I'm able to complete them on time, and today, there's a lot more things weighing down on me. why must life be so unfair? Seriously I dun understand. Things just dont go smooothly for me. I've to learn to take it easy, I noe. but how long must I endure this? It's getting too much for me to bear already..
was unable to control my tears today.. but luckily i didnt really cried lahh. haven even started studying biology, tmr is the test. wth.

2009-09-27T23:39:00.000+08:00

okay.. no time to post le! hahas nth much oso.lols
FYE is coming.. argg..

2009-09-21T22:57:00.002+08:00

okay.. quite productive day.. completed amaths revision! hahas sort of. damn sian i wanna sleep.. slept at 2.30am ytd cos was copying notes..
I wanna work after exams!!
lol random.

2009-09-19T19:47:00.005+08:00

1 week nv post.. hahas. I'm so happy that i'm able to control my usage of the computer. :D
yeapp, and I've stopped playing farmville already. didnt seem as appealing as it was before. It's getting boring. Past few days had been quite fun, didnt fall asleep in class!! Let's see.. I sort of forgot wad happened though. lol.

Monday.. Stayed back in school awhile to complete the maths ws. ate lunch with Fang Hong and Kai Ying. hahhas den went to library with Kaiying and studied Biology! I actually thot I was able to continue studying after that day, but it seems that i've been slacking already. again..
Tuesday. Nothing much in particular. studied in library with Pauline. taught her some maths. but yeahh, no mood to study actually. so not much progress. her bus 169 came earlier than 265.. so I waited until i dun wan wait le. lol. walked to hub and took 86.
Wednesday.. woke up late! lols 6.29 den wake up.. so prepared and left in record time. lols. luckily caught the 6.40 bus.. if not die le. went for biology consultation, for once. hahas. cos waited for Jun Meng since he missed the extra lesson and had to go. was struggling to keep awake though, cos it was damn boring.. haha Fang Hong was trying to keep me awake. lol. after the video went to Sumo house and eat. after that they went home while i go ntuc buy things for my father.. in the end no stock so i go look around to see wad chocolate to buy so i can eat. hahas.
saw macus there. erm no is he saw me. lol. he was buying present for fren mah..
Thursday. woke up late again.. l8r than ytd. 6.32 den wake up.. chionged out of the house faster lo.. den after school phototaking, plus celebration for sept babies. after than went to briefing for india trip. wanted to go, but it clash with MUNOFS wth.. so cant go lo. haix. after the briefing went to canteen. thot would study alone, but saw nicholas lau and howard and their fren, so join them.
Friday raining.. zzz. got drenched sia. lol. went art and yeapps, nothing else.
Saturday. went training in the morning, there's like so little ppl lo.. plus no sepent, very quiet, hahas okay sort of. slack abit. =X realise i got many injuries, wth. and i'm damn slow. ;( ran 500m, started with the girls first, ended second cos got one guy overtook me. haix. after that rained heavily, talked to coach and waited blahh blahh.. ate lunch and went to Yishun library study with Jin xing, Qi Huan, Johnray, Pauline. pauline left early as usual, jr left at 4 ++ and i left awhile after. went to AMK library to find Wei Lin, Benjamin Zhen Hui and Wei Xiang. hahas it was damn funny sia. I think i laughed more than i studied! went home 6++

now my legs are damn tired.. and there's an unbearable pain at my hamstring and leg there. wth. zzz.. i wanna sleep!! kay, guess i'll post next week le. ;D

Thanks! You made my life more meaningful and full of laughters! :D

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WTH sia. I'm damn pissed off at my mum. at first told me results are not very impt, do my best can le. she dun expect much.. now she go confiscate my psp. FOR? zzz.. EXAMS BIG AR? CANT LISTEN TO MUSIC, CANT PLAY AR? WTH sia. LIKE NOW HOW AM I GOING TO STUDY? MY PHONE IS LIKE DAMN LOUSY? MEMORY CARD SO LITTLE SPACE, GOT PROB SOMEMORE. BATTERY LIFE SO SHORT. FCUK LAHH. NOW HOW AM I GOING TO STUDY? WITHOUT MUSIC I TELL U I CANT FOCUS. DO YOU NOE THAT? I TELL U, U DONT! LIKE THAT I'LL FAIL MY EXAMS, YEAH, AND U DUN CARE ONE BIT. U DUN HAVE EXPECTATIONS I HAVE I TELL U. wu li qu nao! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE LAHH! DUN COMPARE ME WITH OTHERS. YOU FORCE ME TO STUDY U GO STUDY YOURSELF LAHH. YOU THINK U UNDERSTAND ME AR. I TELL YOU. YOU DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND ME ONE BIT. YOU DUNNO WAD I WAN, YOU DUNNO WAD KIND OF PERSON I AM. I DUN EVEN NOE HOW TO INTERACT WITH YOU. BUT I DUN BOTHER. CONDISCATE ALL YOU WAN DEN. THE PSP IS MINE RIGHTFULLY. YOU JUS PROVIDED THE 2GB MEMORY CARD. NOTHING ELSE. I GUESS I MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE OF STAYING BACK EVERYDAY. AT LEAST I'M ABLE TO STUDY IN PEACE. AT HOME, FORGET IT.

2009-09-13T22:22:00.000+08:00

great.. blogger got problem again. nvm. now then i realised that there's only 21 days left before final year exams. yeapp, I guess it's going to be last minute revision again bahhs.
tmr start school.. really dun wanna wake up so early sia. haix.
zz.. lazy blog long post le. lol. should be last time bloggin le. until FYE ends bahh perhaps? not that i would be busy studying, but seriously, there's nothing to post about! hahas.
going to stop playing farmville le. guess once i stop planting i can dun care about it le. hehes.

2009-09-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

ahahas very long nv blog le.. xD dunno how to start lol.
okay nvm.
ytd went school for extra lessons.. den went to demi's house!! hahas was fun actually, cos different grp, den nth to do. xD but realise that our group the clinometer do wrong le. wth. so tmr have to redo. damn sian..
trng was okay, and fun! last part got skipping competition thing. wahh calf damn pain lo.. zzz..
den played floorball! ahahs. waited for valerie to go home.
cant use comp ytd.. =X not feeling well. ;(
lucky i asked derek help me to harvest farmville ytd!! if not all wither le. lols

today went out the whole day with family..
walked abit in J8 den ate lunch at pizza hut!!
hahas saw Gabe and his gf there oso. O.O
ate le den shopped abit den homed..
after that went out again to compass point to have dinner.
there's the gundam exhibition thing!! omg it's like damn cool lo. hhahas
ate at Jack's place!! had steak. ;D
okay, today ate alot.. seriously. tmr trng die le lo like that. =X

now have to chiong ve thing. dun wan do on weekend.
haix.. memory card got prob.. group photo= gone! wth lo...
if jun meng cant make it tmr.. den sian sia. ;(
kayes, see when i got mood to blog again. lols.

2009-09-07T21:48:00.002+08:00

Holidays isn't like a holiday lo.. ;( haix one wk only, cant enjoy much.
gonna be damn busy for this whole wk.

monday:
went for art in the morning until afternoon.
left arnd 6 plus cos was doing some hw. :D
today was happy and funny day!!

tuesday:
going to do art in the morning if possible, den go KFC!
to do maths project. climometer thing? hahas

wednesday:
090909!
probably going to zh house with some others to watch FD!

thursday:
morning have extra lessons
afternoon training!

friday:
erm art probably?
hahas

saturday:
training in the morning.
library in the afternoon!

okay.. no time for homeworks! hahas. ;P

2009-09-05T23:18:00.003+08:00

okay.. hahas went for training today.
den lunched and sort of slacked in library. zzz. managed to complete to maths ws. FINALLY. hahas
so yupps. didnt did much studying today. went home and started using the comp. UNPRODUCTIVE day. nvm.
at least i ensured that I would have songs to listen to when i study cos i just ~~downloaded~~ had alot of albums today! hahas. xD

going to sleep soon! yeapp cos someone asked me to.. :P

2009-09-02T21:42:00.003+08:00

okay dunno wad to post, so yeahh.

Insomnia lyrics

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up

Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah

Ah, i just can't go to sleep
Cause it feels like I've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And i know that it's love because

I can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

hahas just felt that the song is nice? so looked for the lyrics. haix
studying like shit like that. dunno wad happened to me sia..

UPDATED TRACK BLOG, SO YEAPPS! MUS GO AND SEE, AHAHAS.

2009-08-30T23:32:00.000+08:00

Term 3 isnt as smooth sailing as I'd thot it would be. 8 months past so quickly and it's going to be teachers day. FYE is also just around the corner. Yet now I feel so.. disprited? It's like there's no motivation for me to move forward, no goal. everything is just so far away.
For once, I am cosidering to skip training, and spent the time studying. but would I study if given the time? that's not likely..
haix.. damn sian.

2009-08-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

o.0 blogger returned to normal! now i can change my font size lerhh! hahas.
just completed my art compositions! woots! damn lahh eng need to do newspaper reflections. zzz.. okay nvm. hahas. try to print tmr? or see how los. haix maths shd be okay bah? have to check how to do radian. haix ss presentation.. damn sian.
did track noticeboard today.. not bad hahs.

saw him on9 this few days.. but didnt dared to talk to him.. guess he wouldn't talk to me oso lahh. 别妄想了！

2009-08-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

played badminton interhouse today! HARMONY D GOT GOLD!!! woots! first time play got gold lerhh! ;D
okay post next time. lol tired. xD

2009-08-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

omg I love roti prata! lols okay damn random. but yeahh, just now my dad bought roti prata to eat.. so I took some. hahas I love the taste!!! xD but have to control, cant eat much. ;( oily mahh, den oso unhealthy. so yupps.
Physics is really... _________ hahas fill in the blanks? PRESSURE sucks man. or is it because of the teacher teaching? haix I really wan mrs yeo to teach. Yes, she teach damn fast,but at least she go thru the ws and i noe how to apply. now its like.. shit.
nvm. ahh... my SUPER BERRIES going to harvest le!! yay! shd've spamed more just now. but nvm. lols.
completing history soon! okay. going to my art? or play? hahas!

2009-08-22T22:09:00.001+08:00

ahahas dunno why today didnt really studied much. D; nvm.. yeah at least read sth..
haix still got eng letter writing. zzz.
suddenly my sis started singing during dinner, so yupps, I joined in too.
my bro keep correting me.. lol. long time nv touch my guitar lerhh!!
wanna play, but no time. ;( I've got the chords and all those notes thing, but yeah..
dunno how to play. xD
my love lyrics is so nice!! hahas.
now going to do my art! sian comp is going to lag again..

My Love

An empty street
An empty house
A hole inside my heart
I'm all alone and the rooms are getting smaller

I wonder how, I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together
And oh my love
I'm holding on forever
Reaching for a love that seem so far

Chorus:
So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again, my love
Overseas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again, my love

I try to read
I go to work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking

I wonder how, I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together
And oh my love
I'm holding on forever
Reaching for a love that seem so far

Repeat chorus

To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from the heart
You're all I'm thinking of

I'm reaching for a love seem so far

Repeat chorus

2009-08-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

Class drama ended yesterday. Overall, it was fun! hahas yeapps, I nv regretted participating in the acting. It was a fun experience, and I've learnt alot. hahas. all those rehearsals, was worth it yeah. xD
This week was a busy week.. haix. have to catch up in studies lerhh.. and most imptly mus destress.. damn sian it's the 7th month, cant go swim.. ;( I think i'll forget how to swim again.. zz.. okay nvm. now doin history project, ss project almost completed, art still need to do compositions, den track noticeboard.. Jiayous bahh!! ahh..

saw him on9 jus now...wanted to talk to him, but would he reply me? haix i doubt so.. ;( nvm bahh.. I shant think of all these things now. afterall, I shd learn to let go already..

2009-08-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

o.0 today and ytd, one word to describe: FUN!!
ytd did abit of class drama, den went to look for ms tay, den art. hahas. went abit crazy during art. hahas. maybe not abit? well ask kaiying and pauline for more details! hahas. kept lauging. I guess that's the reason why i enjoyed art? hahs. den went home.. cos i didnt noe they were in the hall.. thot they left lerhh. haix. I'm so sorry. =X

TODAY!
did finished 4 pages of coursework. many more to go! jus reminded myself. lol need to go deviantart! hahs. erm after art slacked abit, den went to yck. not to stadium, but swimming complex! ahahas. 2 years nv swim lerhh.. thanks andy who taught me the frogstyle.. xD managed to swim 2laps. with some stopping of course. hahs. got once i nearly drowned. hahs. cos was in the middle. den nth to hold, so yeah.. struggling. thx to yinkiat, andy and 1 guy i dunno his name. xD i guess i was too nervous? so struggle den screamed. hahas now i recalled, haix. i should've calmed down. lols. den went to hub with them: huilin, natalie, yinkiat, andy, and that guy. hahas. they ate dinner while i went home.. haix. next time mus ask my mum not to cook le. shd i go again next week? still deciding actually. cos if i go training in the morning i cant go swimming. ;( see how bahhs.

2009-08-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

haix tried changin 2 blogskins: unsucccessful... lols. so back to this, but now it nv redirect to another site le!! hahas. great.. tired now. xD
class drama next week, have to perfect my lines le. ;(

2009-08-13T22:41:00.000+08:00

zz.. just now chionged the ss ppt, den found out that it's not due tmr. CRAP lo. wasted alot of time lehh!! I still need to chiong my art. 20 drawing for test. and i'm not even half done. printer cant print oso.. omg. why is everything going wrong?!

2009-08-08T21:49:00.002+08:00

slacked the whole day.. lols. morning went training, ate mac breakfast for lunch! hahahas. It's abit pathetic though, only me, pauline, and elwin. chatted alot, den after that look for skipping rope. dun hav so pei elwin go ntuc, den he left. me and pauline went to look again lo.. went to alot of places. hahs.
reached home at 2pm.. den on comp and slack! omg play fb games until so long.. den went to boon keng.. practically wasted the whole day.. nvm. let's enjoy! lols.

haix.. thought of lots of things whenever i look through my contacts lists and saw his name.. I just cant forget him.. :(

虽然已经过了一段日子，但我却无法忘记。即使我们并不是认识很久，却也曾相识过。那些回忆至今我还记忆犹新，仿佛是昨天才发生的一样。只能怪我们有缘无份吧。为什么我会喜欢你呢？也许... 我们只适合做朋友。可现在，我们算是朋友吗？我真希望时光能倒流，回到以前那段日子。即使我还是无法与你说话，只能在远处默默地看着你，我也心满意足了...

2009-08-06T21:54:00.000+08:00

never update quite awhile already.. hahas hope to remain as cheerful as possible? but nowadyas still quite restless. finally can get a break. 4 days holidays! highly anticipated!! yay. can do lots of things in this period yeah, shopping, catch up with work, blah blah. ahahs.
time management is important, but then, I do not have to mood to motivate myself to study, nor to train. sometimes my mentality is just so weak, and I'd slack. this is unacceptable, i noe. but wad can I do? haix..
okay nvm. just relax during this period bahh. hahas!!! lol
facebook lag lahh.. my farmvile!! zz..

2009-08-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

long time nv blog.. hahas now i really learnt to 放开 le.
凡事都不要太执着，是你的，就是你的，没有人能够抢得了。
只要有付出努力，就会得到应有的成就。
笑也是一天，哭也是一天，为什么不笑着过每一天呢？
done up the track phone relay, in one day! proud of myself yeah. nevermind if i cant perform well in all subjects. who ask me to take up art in the first place? but i never really did regret, yet, I really have to learn to manage my time well.. That's my weakness. haix.
nonetheless.. trigonometry is freaking me out!! omg. for me this kind of abit slow ppl, cant really noe how to apply lo. hahahs. yay and i got full marks for additional maths test! coordinate geometry. xD but emaths screw le bah.. unless i'm lucky? hahas crossing my fingers!

2009-07-29T16:49:00.002+08:00

just now saw sth which caused me to think a lot...
___________________________________

dreams...
as children they are the things we have in our sleep and the fanciful actions of the things we do
acting irrationally expressing our joys at the things around us
playing the games our imagination put into our minds
ignorant of the horrors, the chaos, and the evil that exists around us
an ignorance that not only protects us but also shields us from those things that can harm us

dreams...
as teenagers they are the things we do, not caring of what the consequences may be
taking chances without thinking of what may happen
doing the things that those who love us warn us against
irrationally risking our own lives in total ignorance of the prices that we will have no choice but to pay
a price that not only bring us regret,
but leaves the scars that will never go away
scars that will haunt us for the rest of our lives

dreams...
as adults they are the hopes of what may be
the hopes that our choices will bring us true happiness
a happiness that the careers we choose will bring us success
a success that we can share with those we meet
meeting not only friends but one that will bring us true happiness
the one person that can drive away the loneliness we feel inside

dreams...
many say that they hold the key to our future
that they hold the secrets of our past
others will say that they are the source of our darkest fears also believing that they bring forward our greatest of fantasies
keeping our mind, our heart, and our soul within its grasp

dreams...
they are the things that we strive so hard to achieve, carrying the knowledge in our minds that they may never come true
they are the hopes in our soul that we try so hard to keep that we are willing to try anything to do so
they are the goals we struggle so hard to achieve that we are willing to sacrifice our sanity so we can obtain them
they are the desires within us that we become so desperate for, that we are willing to pay any price to never let them go
they are the pieces of our mind, heart, and soul, that without them....

we have nothing to live for.....

2009-07-29T15:41:00.003+08:00

hahas doing art now.. in art rm! lol eye damn tired. :( wanna sleep.
Just now have 2 ssrp periods, and they're the last 2 lessons. so pauline came to class and wwe did some art lo. cos she was released earlier than me..
a lot of hw haven do yet. hahas. but nvm. it's not really very impt anyways. xD

2009-07-28T22:06:00.001+08:00

erm was damn stress the past few days.. didnt noe how to relax oso hahas. Guess I was too stubborn over some things? Think too much oso. Haix, why should i bother about some insignificant things? Or rather, are grades really that important, and worthy of me to sacrifice all my time to commit to it? hmm.. I've second thoughts bout that now..
I've finally realise my shortcomings.. And it's time I learn to change! lols.
anyways, really appreciate those that helped me by encouraging me and teaching me lots of stuffs. especially Shaun, Michelle, Zhen Hui and Eugene. Thanks! :D
I'm feeling much much much better now! must be 乐观！hahas

2009-07-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

yesterday's training was tough! same as thursday program, but 1 set more. haix. ate lunch, bbt-ed, den homed. went out again to cut my hair! wth i'm nv going to step into that shop again. my hair is ruined! zzz.. dunno how to go to school tmr le. okay, not that bad, but still it's not nice.

did art today, left 4 more pages to complete? or more i guess. den haven study for tests yet. zz.. okay gotta finish up hw le.

2009-07-23T22:33:00.002+08:00

okay.. not sure if i'm able to post this. lols blogger got prob.
tmr a maths test and i'm still here. hahas. this is great man....... life sucks. at least today. put me in total bad mood. zz. complained to zh jus now. lols. and felt loads better now, although i'm still damn pissed off at someone. bbt-ed after training, den went to j8 to buy present for sis. went back school busstop, and waited for valerie.. den homed.

junmeng came back this week! hahas now lessons are more fun, although durin ve today i seriously wan to sleep while listening to ms zaiton. her voice is like a lullaby! lols.

I seriously HATE that attitude of yours.. wth stop thinking that you're so big and that everyone has to do your bidding. you dun wanna listen to others den fine! dun come and look for others only when you need info and help.

2009-07-18T00:27:00.002+08:00

Life is fragile..
haix Mdm yeo's strong. and she's optimistic.
she's a good teacher, why must such misfortune befall her?

we must cherish those who are around us. who knows what will happen tomorrow?

2009-07-15T23:11:00.004+08:00

oral was screwed, especially the conversation part. but nonetheless, talked to someone and felt much better. thanks yeah! It's over, cant do anything about that le. okay.. I'm tired. and my comp is lagging like hell today. shant post much today.

stressed up, everything's piling up. I must learn to let go.. dun keep wanting to do everything. there's no point. haix. but so what? i've no idea what to do. no one to lead me on, no one to spur me on. I have no one to talk to, no one to confide to, no one to teach me wad to do, no one to give me advices. It's just hopeless. I'm tired.. seriously, very tired. I'm selfish, yeah i admit. but who isnt? I guess I'll just isolate myself? cos wadever i do, no one would notice me or find that something is admiss. who would wan to waste their time caring about something which doesnt concern them?

2009-07-14T21:02:00.002+08:00

Self trained today at yck. actually not considered self train. hahas more like slacking. xD taught valerie abit maths, den she tested me on some oral topic. now i realise how weak I'm at oral. crap. and tmr is the day.. OMG how am i going to survive? zzz. nvm just do my best?

saw RAYSON LING after 3years! omg he's damn black lo. hahas okay let's rephrase. He became very tanned. almost cant recognise him if not for deborah. xD didnt thot i would see him in such a place. lols.

2009-07-12T23:07:00.002+08:00

right.. got error, den all that i'd typed was gone. lols. not that i typed alot though. =X
nvm no mood to blog lerhh.. hahas
watching 20th century boys! and harry potter and the half blood prince. xD still looking for free time.. lol

I'm lagging behind in studies.. omg.

2009-07-10T23:22:00.002+08:00

right, this is the 100th post. xD and i dare say that most of the posts are emo. a failed attempt to have a blog full of happiness and cheerfulness. lols that why i had actually recreated the blog last year. kay nvm enough about that.. i've decided not to continue posting about the india students le. just to say that i've lots of fun with them during these few days! and it seems weird when they're not around today. xD

stayed back to do chinese ws today! ahahs it was quite fun. with some jokes and chatting. :D left with alice, bernice and yan ting. bus-ed to j8! den me and ber went to have our lunch. i'm starving lo.. hahas. alice and yanting went home. actually wanted to eat subway, but there're alot of ppl, den long john oso nv open.. so went to eat yoshinoya instead. hahas chatted alot!! yays i love it mans. hope can do this everyday! den took circle line home! I love it when there's someone to pei me home. hahs my LRT came earlier than bernice's so i left first. =X home-d and actually wanted to do hw, but ended up sleeping. lols. and i've not done anything yet. zzz.

I have no idea about wad are the things that are important to me. Friends, family, track, studies.. there're simply too much things to be done, and so little time. I dun know which are my piorities. haix.

I must control myself tmr.. no more trying to be part of them. I am just myself, and I'll only live for myself, not others.

2009-07-08T21:44:00.002+08:00

okay.. i finally have mood to blog about the Indians Students! lols
Sunday went to SENTOSA. watched the AYG beach volleyball. only wactch for half an hour. one match. indonesia win Yemen! walked around and went to Fort Siloso, Images of Singapore, 4D thing, underwater world, and dolphin lagoon. ate lunch at subway. xD Mr Siva paid for us. they didnt get to play at the beach cos it was raining.. haix. i oso didnt get to play.. went to vivo after that den they left. ate dinner and homed.
hahas they're very funny lo. xD actually wanted Vinayak and Aman to come our class, but nvm lo. got VK can le. hahas. Udit, Ekam, and 2 more came our class for lessons.
went to marina barrage on monday after e learning. exchanged numbers and email.. hahas VK and Aman are couple! xD jkjk.
post tmr. lols

2009-07-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

didnt feel like updating about the events of the hosting of the indian students. cos very tired now. spent so much time creating a blog for that, yet haven post yet. xD hahas. yawning repeatedly. lols.
seriously, these 2 days were well spent with them. we were playing and chatting, and it's so much fun! It's damn enjoyable without all those 勾心斗角.. me and michelle really hope to sit with vk tmr. xD shoo junmeng. hahas no offense. lets see gets to sit with vk lo.. I dun mind actually.
okay great i'm so tired that i cant think of wad to write..
nights
*yawns*

2009-07-06T10:20:00.002+08:00

yeah great. i think i shall just give up and be myself. have to pretend so much when i'm with them, yet i get nth in return, and just being ignored. I shall just learn and stop forcing myself! It's so much fun being with other frens then them lo. ytd at sentosa was a great experience! met new frens, and caught up with present frens. i can play to my max and really be happy, instead of always having to 'kan lian se'.. seriously, I shd have realised it long ago, that none of them wants my presence. and yeah, I've been torturing them and myself too.

2009-07-03T23:35:00.002+08:00

today was quite a fruitful day, sort of. hahas. went to the AYG games village at swissotel. The volunteer(is that wad they're called?) very funny hahas. He's Chua Jia Jun(CJJ) and he's from Jurong JC(JJC). the initials are the same lo.. xD Took pics with the Qatar guy who looks like a statue. okay no offence. lols. I like the sketchy sketchy! hahas FUN! went back to school just in time for end of recess. so skipped a bit of maths. ms lee was good! hahas although she only gave me 15min.

after school took class photo, went art room. hate my thumbdrive.. made my files corupted, and I was so worried that my compositions would disappear.. all my hard work! lucky i saved in my comp alr.. but still.. haix. went to look for trackers at the library and played monopoly. didnt managed to complete, but i love the game. ahaha.

travelled to bishan stadium to watch AYG. jr couldn't get ticket.. :( felt a bit bad as we all sort of ps-ed him.. high jump was great! all the guys so pro lo.. jump so high. the china one got gold. 2.03m. he didnt managed to clear 2.05m, but that's alr a great achievement le! 100m guys finals was freaking fast. arnd 11s.. first was 10.8s. SGD got 3rd! congrats! the 100m girls finals was oso great! the top three at first were like side by side, den suddenly the korea one blasted and got first, and japan second. shocked. she's like damn fast lo. 12++s cant rmb the exact time. lucky there's 800m for me to watch today. :) but their timing all fast fast de. guys is like 1:55min and the first and second passed the finishing line almost tgt.. damn close. girls oso not bad. cant really rmb though. the 4x200m guys were unlucky. there were 2 false starts lo.. den they have to start 3 times.. i cant imagine how nervous i would be if i experience sth like that.. 2 false starts lehh.. normal is 1 only lo. but they ran well, and thailand got first. they oso got first for the girls. :) ended and we went to eat dinner and bubbletea-d. went to home.. damn tired now..

2009-07-02T22:06:00.004+08:00

someone asked me today why my posts are so emo.. hahas. To tell teh truth, I dunno too. maybe because I want to vent out the anger, and sense of unfairness in me? Nonetheless, things are still not going too well for me. studies are going downhill man. I should sleep early and stop playing aroung, watching dramas, but still, I cant seem to get the motivation to study. I cant even focus in class lo. always yawning and wanting to sleep. omg. somemore tmr will be missing SS lesson. oh great. should i be sacrificing my lessons for the AYG Games Village thing? It's like a rare oppurtunity, I noe.. but.. haix. This is just crap. and after school going to watch the AYG finals. haix. 400m already ran, 1500m oso. 800m i'm not sure. so wad's there to watch? zzz.. Training on Saturday. maybe sentosa on sunday. I'm not managing my time well.. Plus, I really dun like the class to be spreading rumours about me.. SERIOUSLY I dun like jonathan phang lo. It's just making things worse for me.. should change my seat i guess. dun really like sitting at the last row.. but junmeng is okay and he noe alot. so it's good sitting with him.. lols. ART IS STILL NOT DONE! i'm dead meat..

zh told me that i should get over him.. hahahs I noe. but yeah.. I'm trying. soon I'll be able to forget him. Time will heal all wounds. :) (him as in another guy.. not zh. hahas)

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sometimes in school I'm not even sure I'm really happy, or I pretend to be happy/cheerful. but one thing I'm sure of is, being with friends and playing are definitely happier than at home. no one understands me, no one knows wad i'm going through. life is getting more and more difficult for me, and challenges are up ahead. I know I'm going to stress myself out sooner or later. It's just a matter of time before I really shut myself up, and all that everyone sees is just the fake me.. I'm not hoping for that day though..

2009-07-01T21:39:00.002+08:00

tired nowadays!! ahahas dunno why oso. but just cant focus during lessons and keep waiting for lessons to end. xD surprisingly history lesson and physics lesson today seems to pass very fast. lols. did physics practicel. I dun relly like practicals lo.. den go SPA. haix. I cant do well..
trained with eugene, marcus, sinyao, shahizam, gabe, and a few more.. first time i really trained lo.. but the intervals timings is damn slow.. crap. ran with a p6 boy.. and i was slower. wth. den was too tired so i slept without doin my hw. hahas. chionged maths in school today. but mostly dunno how to do. haix blame myself for not listening in class. muscles are damn tight now.. and cos was not wearing track shoes today, the soles of my feet are damn pain now, and my ankle injury act up again.. unlucky me.

I'm procrastinating and putting my art hw aside.. shit. and I find myself quite selfish actually. xD gotta change for the better!

2009-06-29T23:47:00.001+08:00

just completed xiaowangzi! yes i'm so glad! lols..
this whole week no training.. haix. sianz sia..
kk shall blog tmr. have to go now. xD
nights!

being cheerful is my only option..

2009-06-28T19:23:00.002+08:00

last day of holidays! lols.. i shouldnt be so happy ehh? dun like to study.. ahh... my art haven even started the preparatory work lo. den still need to paint the big canvas. crap. i'm so gonna fail it if i dun do anything soon. stupid terminator. how am i going to recreate one?!

just watched finished ABSOLUTE BOYFRIEND! ZETTAI KARESHI! hahas.. actually i'm quite happy that robot died los. I want Riiko Izawa to be with Soshi Asamoto! xD they're engaged in the special episode! but i only watched until part 3 so i dunno wad happened next. stupid ayumi. why revive tenjo night?!

2009-06-27T21:29:00.002+08:00

went to watch the AYG opening preview today. it was not bad, but the first performance abit disorganised.. lol everyone was doin their own thing, den no coordination. made us dunno which one to look at. hahas. but the rest are okay. XD

homed after that..

sian now only at episode 9.. zzz

cried to sleep yesterday. yeah, all the problems keep coming back to me.. The world is full of unfairness.. i dunno how long i can endure these already. everything i do, it just doesnt seem enough. all the get back is just scoldings and more scoldings. I'm very tired already. why cant they jus understand? haix..

2009-06-26T20:28:00.002+08:00

went to kbox at broadwayplaza(amk) today!!
there's 9 ppl. Me, Elwin, Donovan, Johnray, NiJun, Natalie, JinXing, QiHuan and Pauline
I dun like the fish lo.. next time I'm not going to order fish lerhh. got one weird smell that makes me wanna puke man.. den everything so cold.. so in the end only ate the pudding and some rice.
left around 2.30pm although we shd end at 2 hahas.
donovan, nijun and pauline left early.. so the rest of us went to elwin house to play dunno wad board game.. which was damn complicated. hahas. but it's challenging and fun!! too bad i had to leave early.. haix.
dunno why feel so tired today. think i'll sleep early today bahh.
zzz...

michael jackson died today. now i realised how fragile life can be.. people live, people died.. I wonder when would be my turn?

2009-06-25T20:22:00.003+08:00

chionged all the homework today. actually left not much oso. only 2 chinese papers. but I hate that comprehension!! wasted my time. lols.

now doin the xiaowangzi.. haix lazy lehh. why nv extend holidays?!
I wanna watch Zettai Kareshi!! still stuck at episode 5 cos my mum didnt let me watch ytd... zzz...

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haix.. now only at epi 6. part 2.. damn slow.

four weeks have passed.. wad have I been doing all these while? trainings, outings, shopping(sort of), homework.. I've only been wasting my time. not a bit of the holidays I had used to do my revisions. and to think I had actually wanted to do well in the final year. how am I going to cope in the next few months? crap, I think i'm just dead meat.. given how easily I'll succumb(sp) to stress, I'll break down sooner or later. and my tests... wad the heck have I done? seriously, I'm damn tired and sian.. I have no interest in anything at all. my mind tells me to play and slack all the way. haix.

2009-06-24T00:15:00.002+08:00

watching absolute boyfriend!! xDD actually i shdn't be watching.. haix. but nvm since i alr started. hahas that's an excuse.. now I'm at episode 4.. but got a bit prob.

I dunno why, I wanna change, but i dunno how. I noe i'm a perfectionist, I noe i keep making things complicated. but this is me.. I dunno how and when I'll stop comparing myself with others. wad they achieve is theirs. If I've an improvement, that's already a great consolation. but why am I not contented? I just dunno why I must think of winning. Is it because I've no confidence in myself? In studies, In track, In life.. I'm always like that. How do I change?!

2009-06-23T22:13:00.003+08:00

training just now.. actually thot wont have beep(sp)test, cos it's raining.. but coach came, so its still conducted. lols.. my flu haven recover yet!! sian lo.. hamstring damn tight lo, cant really run. haix in the end only got level 9.7 want to get 10 de lo.. xD nvm i shall try to improve.

sian camp is cancelled! all becos of H1N1.. wth lo!
no choice have to stay at home.. but friday I'm goin KBOX with some trackers. hahas..

sometimes i really feel invisible. noone notices me, noone includes me.. I'm sort of forgotten. am I really that insignificant?

2009-06-22T23:05:00.002+08:00

sianz i really hate it man.. just before beep(sp) test tmr i have flu?! damn unlucky.. must have caught the flu bug at Tan Tock Seng Hospital. wth! very tiring and xinku! =X have to keep eating medicine, make the flu go away. both chinese and western medicine oso need to eat. lols.. i really hate flu.. somemore got camp on wed lerhh. haix

2009-06-21T22:45:00.003+08:00

long time nv post lerhh.. cos my brother was hospitalised.. den I have to visit him everyday. haix very tired now.. dun have the mood to do hw. really hope that holidays can be extended. hahs dunno wad to do now.. dun hav the mood. arg..

anw
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELWIN!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIONG SENG!

2009-06-16T22:16:00.002+08:00

I'm damn proud of myself today cos i completed the training. :D
actually thought that i was unable to last for all 5 sets, yet surprisingly, I was able to push on. timings were not off even, and i improved! yay!
first &second set: 4:35s
third set: 4:28s (thanks to alfred)
fourth set: 4:19s
fifth set: 4:10s
I'm damn proud of my last one. cos i was already very tired, and my mentality was not strong enough. when i ran past jonathan, and still have 300m more to go, I'd actually wanted to slow down and jogged.. but i keep telling myself that this is the last one already, go on! so yeah, managed to maintain the pace, maybe going a bit faster, and caught up with the NJ guy, who slowed down alot. but at the last 100m he still have energy to go faster, than overtake me.. lols. I've decided to run my own pace hahas. haix now I'm yawning and i WANT MY SLEEP! xD which i cant have at the moment. have to finish the selection of music.. sianzz. doing art? tmr and xiaowangzi.

I know I should be forgetting you, trying to erase you from my memories. but it's difficult.. haix.

2009-06-15T23:48:00.002+08:00

should i start posting happy stuffs? I dun really noe actually. sometimes i wonder if i'm really contented. I find myself a hypocrite.. i jus dun understand wad i'm doing oso.. haix. if i dun even understand myself, who will? my goals are all left unachieved. my procrastination had came back. things are all not going my way. I feel damn SIAN. dun wanna do anything except to sleep. i dun even have the urge to train anymore.. I dun feel the improvement, the persistance, the energy. wad happened to me?
arg...

2009-06-14T22:32:00.004+08:00

kay i shall post about the outing ytd!! I JUST LOVE OUTINGS! hahas..

went to bishan mrt at 11pm to meet the others.. Wenn Hao reached so early. lols. i was still at seragoon when he was at the station. I guess i should leave house earlier next time bahh. xD something really dangerous at the mrt station.. hahas partially my fault and jonathan's fault.. sorry Johnray!! he got stuck in between the mrt doors lahh.. omg actually it was quite alright, but after that when he talked of the consequences, i was like shocked! imagine if the train moves on and jr is in between the doors?! okay let's dun talk about tat lerrh. hahas.

reached harbourfront mrt and went to the sentosa express to wait for shaun, wenn hao and nicholas/ kenzo who did not get onto the train earlier. sry i forgot who's the last person. :X den they bought the tickets while i went down to wait for Jon and Terence. lols there's one disadvantage of wearing club tee with my name behind. got one guy, a salesperson called my name when i went past him.. den i turned around, but cos i was on the phone i didnt talk to him.. but i was thinkin: do i noe him? cos he seemed quite unfamiliar.. hahas. den the second time i walked past him he said that he saw my name behind that's why called me. i was like okay... lols wasted my brain cells thinking who was him. =X

when we went back up, they alr left, den qian jun and jialiang waited for us.. hahas thx! decided to wait for the second group of ppl, who came after training. went to giant and bought 1.5litres of water, which i didnt finish in the end hahas. the sentosa express was damn crowded lo lols.. terence ticket got stuck in the seat cos he played with it and dropped it in the hole.. haix.

reached there and the 3 june babies went digging for their presents. the cake sort of melted cos the sand was warm.. i think both presents was found by hexiang, although he wasnt one of the june babies. lol. den play i dunno wad game, which we had to pass the presents of tiong seng and elwin around.. hahs den ate the strawberry cheesecake. It was nice, although i dun really like the cheese. only when i got the cake i realise its cheesecake, but i cant possibly give back, so jus ate it lo. overall it was nice. hahs

played touch rugby, volleyball.. and went into the water. hahas thanks nijun for lending me her shirt!! xD den me and qihuan was buried by sand. :) I like the experience, and the sand was soft! so it's quite comfortable. bathe and had dinner at vivo.

went up the rooftop, me and aglin went to walk across the pond. :) chatted awhile, den when back. hope to see her soon!! :D after that she left with jialiang.. cos she got curfew. took pics with elwin.. i looked at the pic le.. i realise i look damn weird lo. wth. no photogenic(sp) at all.. zz. left early with kenzo, jonathan and sepent.

overall enjoyed the outing! so nijun, dun worry too much hahas! XD

2009-06-11T21:35:00.002+08:00

hahas i guess i was out of my mind ytd? a bit crazy.. I actually sent messages to the wrong person! lols.. and i kept doing weird things. hahas. maybe like wad teng han says, i'm weird. hahas! quite busy these few days.. monday training, tuesday training, wednesday art, thursday art and training... hahas den tmr got art. haix.. i do the art damn slow lo. i think i'm the slowest between the 4 of them. haix. and I've no confidence that i'll be able to do well in art. my mid year showed me that my painting had deproved. omg. how am i going to survive?!

now chionging art.. hahas. still have to wait for the sec ones to reply me. hope i can go the saturday outing!!

2009-06-09T11:24:00.002+08:00

Alright, just posting before training later. This should be my last training of the week, because the next 3 days I'll be packed with Art lessons.. lol. and I cant go the saturday training because of my mum. wth.. gues I'll have to self train already? but i seems difficult cos there isnt any stadium near my house.. hahas. Have to beg ms tay to let me off early on thursday so I can go training bahh.. I really dun want to skip gym training lehhs.. although i know that I wont be able to do the chin up even with support. hmm.. or should i just go the friday training? lols..

Great, I've finally set my mind to forget all about him le. It's like a load lifted off me. I wouldnt let anything about him affect me le. (at least I'll try) lol. I realise I should've done it earlier lo, why should i be indecisive over these things? hahas.. now that it's over, I feel better. Or
should i say I thought i feel better?

2009-06-06T23:53:00.002+08:00

haix.. I'm not sure wad to do now... I tried to erase him from my memory, yet I can't bring myself to delete the messages. I'll always back off, and cant seem to press the button, ending it once and for all. haix. I'm such a failure. what on earth am I thinking?

2009-06-05T21:01:00.003+08:00

i'm seriously very angry and upset now. why is it that i cant go anywhere i like? it's the holidays, i have the freedom to relax and play right? you already know that i dont like to stay at home, why are you doing this to me? you don't know how important this is to me. if i miss this chance, it's sort of no hope for me already. i'll be missing out on all the fun. great, just let me cry to sleep again then. as if you would ever understand me. no one understands me. i'm just the insignificant one.

2009-06-03T22:11:00.002+08:00

well, it had been ages since i last blogged. I finally watched finish Boys over Flowers after so long. lol. Many things happened these few weeks.. but I don't think i'm going to list everything out bah. but yeah.. I should be able to start posting more often already since i'm not going to watch anymore shows. I realised today that I'm seriously very very off form. i maintained my 400m timing.. haix. I shouldn't stay stagnant at 73s! but my 800m was worst.. why on earth did I went back to 3 min?! this sucks, seriously. cried after the run. okay not exactly cried, but got tears lo. lols. I seriously don't know what happened to me. Having flu isn't an excuse for my timing to become so bad right? nothing goes well for me.. until now i still do not know how to do my art homework, and I haven't even go to the library to research. crap. what the hell am I doing? I'm back to procrastinating again. homework are all left undone, and everyday I'm just slacking my time off. went to watch a movie last sunday. Terminator Salvation. did I spell wrong? lols. It was not bad actually. quite interesting, but it was a pity i didn't watch the previous one, so some parts i didnt really understand. Okay, I'm ending here. trying to see wad I can do lo. should I start studying?

sometimes i dunno wad I can do, and wad i should do. i'm really confused. i dunno why, but it's just that i can't really fit in with them. often i would feel left out, and i dunno how to start a topic to talk about with them. or rather, i dunno any common topic to talk with them about. i dun understand how she's able to become so close with them so easily. I've tried to.. but it's not really 'rewarding' erm i think that's a wrong use of word.. i really dunno wad to do. i hate those kind of lonely feeling, when everyone's got someone to talk to, and i'm all alone. it always happens, especially when the group i'm in is an odd number. haix. actually there's something else i wanna talk about, but i dunno if i shd. lols. seriously, sometimes i really wonder if i'm that insignificant. i doubt that anyone would bother to ask about me if i disappeared? and i dun feel that i've done anything for the team at all lo. I dun think i've helped in any way.. haix. why is everything going the wrong way for me? why cant everything just run smoothly? Studies, Track, and Life. everything just went wrong. i dun understand!

2009-05-20T21:09:00.002+08:00

hahas slacked the whole day today. hahas. watched 花样男子！the F4 so shuai!! xD omg!! hahas lol, i become a 花痴 lerhh. okay nvm back to watching my show! now at episode 6!

2009-05-19T14:08:00.002+08:00

finally!! took the last paper of MYE 2009 just now. lols. hope that i can at least get a b3 for art bah.. if not all my efforts all wasted, and i'm going to fail my emaths paper 1 because of it. didnt noe how to do most of the questions, and i actually forget how to do completing the square. wow. okay it's over.. nvm.
haix, ytd, or rather midnight i chionged my prep work until 4 am. hahas.. didnt complete it though. lol.. cos after i printed it in school, the exam was starting. actually wanted to wake up at 6am ++, but int the end overslept and woke up at 7am. so i slept 3 hours int total. pro right? hahas.. gotta have my sleep soon. burnt the midnight oil the past few days because of art...

2009-05-17T21:06:00.002+08:00

I shall blog about ytd first lol..
went to trng in the morning, lunched, den went jr's hse.. hahas. didn't wan to go at first. but in the end still go hahas. played one very fun game like the arcade one. dunno wad's it's called. lol. something like audition but is like dancing instead of using fingers. hahas sepent and nat are pro!! hahas.

after that played RISK while watching movie... didnt noe how to play.. hahs so in the end lost. lol. anw I oso had to go le. walked a long way.. until the traffic light.. and saw 857 at the busstop. crap sia. cant chase the bus. so waited at the busstop and 163 and 70 drove past. checked iris, and realise that 578 just reached my house's busstop, so I ran all the way to the previous bus stop and crossed the road. It's like damn long lo.. made me out of breath.. lol. but in the end i still have to wait arnd 4 min++ for the bus to come. haix. if I knew i wouldnt have ran all the way..

but the bus driver was damn good!! I was going to the National Library at Bras Basar(sp) but the bus didnt stop there, and i didnt noe how to get down. he let me get down at the road side, where i could just walk straight, and reach the library. omg I was really shocked, but happy. hahas..

went to the reference section, level 8, den search the books.. wanted to photocopy, but i didnt have cashcard, so I asked the persons if i can use ezlink, which i cant. lol. but she lent me hers, which was like so good lo!! hahas. so eventually i did photocopy lol.

den i went to B1, and found some books. but i cant use my card to borrow, cos i haven pay my fine, and since mine's new ezlink card, i cant pay. i tried to use my mum's card, but i can only borrow 2 books, which means i have to return 1. so i went to the photocopy room again but this time i have to buy cashcard if i need to photocopy.. so i went out and thot for a long time, before i went back in again. there was only one person there, so i asked whether i can use his cash card, den i'll pay him cash. and he agreed! hahs..
dunno why, but it's like ytd is my lucky day, met lots of nice ppl who helped me. hahas.

but today didnt went too well. overslept and woke at 12. and up till now I've only paintes 4 faces.. which is like so slow. omg.

2009-05-15T20:57:00.002+08:00

today was overall fun hahas! Chem paper was quite easy I should say. hahas. envious of those not pure chem.. when they left i just started on my section C.. lols. got a lot of questions come out in the last year paper oso lo.. omg. okays. after that went to art room to do a bit of art. didnt feel like doin lo. haix. wasted my time i should say. nvm. 1 pm went to meet zhen hui and xin hui and some of her classmates, den went to kfc to eat. hahas..

went to watch movie: ANGELS AND DEMONS. omg the movie is cool!! hahas the effects was damn good. and I like the story! xD after that slacked abit at amk hub, den went home.

now i'm feeling damn tired, and got headache somemore.. BUT I'M STILL FRETTING OVER MY ART PREP WORK!! omg how am I going to get A1 for art? crap!!!
3 more days ONLY...

2009-05-14T20:20:00.002+08:00

okay today's papers was.. dunno wad to say.. didnt complete physics.. history was generally okay. I feel that i was crapping.. hahs. okay i played just now instead of revising. shit!! okay shd go study now. tmr chem!!